Holly Madison Talks About Suicide in New Memoir

Holly Madison Talks About Suicide in New Memoir

Holly Madison’s new memoir, Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny, reveals that life inside Hugh Hefner’s Playboy Mansion was not what it seemed.

The new book details the realities of being one of Hefner’s live-in girlfriends.

The publisher, Harper Collins, said in a release:

“Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.”

In the new book, Madison in holding nothing back, it seems.

“Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare,” according to promotional material. “After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.”

Madison, 35, who’s now married to Pasquale Rotella and mom to their toddler-aged daughter Rainbow, first skyrocketed to fame in 2005 alongside Bridget Marquardt and Kendra Wilkinson. The trio starred as Hef’s girlfriends in E!’s reality series, The Girls Next Door, for five seasons until it ended in 2010.

“I’m excited to finally share my story and what I’ve learned from my personal experiences both inside and outside of the Playboy Mansion,” Madison exclusively tells Us “I think my stories will surprise people and I’m looking forward to lifting the veil of mystique and clearing up the misconceptions so often associated with my life.”

Her memoir, Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny, will debut on June 23.